Wow

what the hell just happened. The Tour just blew up damnnnnnn.

My vote is it is now all clear for Floyd....

holy smokes.

Time to drop some letters in the mail.

And stop by and visit with the director.

So maybe....

I am burned out a little, or just tired or something.

The bike has always been fun - this one is a touch different I did not start to feel like this until september last year, this year end of june/early July. Not sure, but something to consider I guess.

So any and all suggestions would be great. 4 days of racing in less than a week has me with the legs up, ice applied and choking down cyto junk.

The Tour baby

It's back and it's on. All the doping action before the start will make for interesting situations. My euro spies say stuff is already crazy. Get ready kids this is going to be good.

Thanks for the photo. Much respect.  

Not so stellar

Another race in the books and I am fighting myself the whole way. I don't know the why's and wherefore's of the training and racing. Something is not clicking, this time last summer I was going along pretty well this year I have no idea - I gotta right the ship on this one, I need this to go well, I need this to feel good when I am racing, I feel okay when riding but when I ramp it up it's like that old golf I had sometimes it hummed along at a 100 other times it sputtered and coughed nad jerked around. That is how I feel when racing or trying to get the top end going. Not sure why and that is frustrating me. So any suggestions?

Ahh so that is how you do/did it

Nice little discovery that will be good for the long run.

Very interesting. Valuable and telling.

Ouch

Is all I can say.

Nice day

Got a ride in - now it looks like some weather is coming in. Sheesh I wish we could get the t-storms over with. Sugarloaf? Egreen or just a day off?

Again

Nope still not working, crap - my place was a disater and now I am proud that is it all tidy and clean. I hope someone rents it or I can sell it. This is getting rough. No rest for the weary.

I am out.

One more

Blogger is acting up I was trying to add another pic but I can only type this. Dang.

Haulin Tail

Had to get home smolin quick. I forgot that I needed to post pictures of my place for the ad.

Ride fizzled since I was so distracted, some people know when to give it a rest others drive you to just give up.

Hawkes - I am working on more riding so sit tight, gotta deal with people checking out the place. In and out and in and out.

Now a pic of my clean place.

Flat out tired. Stress got me today.

One more thanks

Okay here we go:

Singapore
Venezuela
Kentucky
AZ
Belguim
Utah
Ontario Canada
Texas

Visitors thanks for coming and reading! Expect a shout out to the respective cities and countries

Rough Day

Well I gave it a go and was shut down - tried and trying is all you can do - everything was set and ready but fate kismet or just plain old bad luck found it's way to the event (notice not me) from the race you ask it was semi fast and fun to shoot. I am trying to create a photo page so click on that and see the work. You can have em for free as I feel like I should give back and not take.

Some are good some are marginal but hey the other dude that was shooting was charging at least a finski for a shot, I could probably make some loot but the Altruistic guy in me say hey we work hard enough and spend enough on the sport so why not do a service to your fellow rider.

So I that going for me at least.

Pre ride 2 chain broke and I was out of the race before it started.... 

Pre ride 1 

Pre ride 2 

Pre ride 1 

Shoes after the chain broke  

Boulder Shorty

Is it on? Any votes? Round and round in circles in dirt?

Comments?

Dead Dog is iffy for me

That RR is so far away from town and that course so demanding that I think that I would crack.

That climb is deadly and I feel like that I would not make the time cut, so I am going to have to probably take a pass on mothra.

If the let me in the crit and TT I may do it. However I am not holding my breath on that one.

So onward and upward I go.

Got some

Nice photo's up on the site! Thanks guys. At least I have that going for me. Semi-pro/am photo dude. Good experience and all and it is always fun to actually be in the process for framing and managing the photo's. Plus everyone is up for photo's. Never understood that as I do not really like my own picture but - hey when it is working it's working.

Gotta find a carpet cleaner on the cheap. Then ride, then take some shots then eat then turn some wrenches then eat some more, fret over bills, eat some more and fret over bills - repeating.

It has been quiet all weekend and the start of the week has also been pretty quiet. Sort of strange but I'll take it, in the maelstrom of looking for a job this has been a nice quiet moment so I can pull it back a bit and get some perspective.

Add

England and Illinois to the list of visitors. Wow thanks.

From...

Austrailia to Penn State - readers are popping up everywhere. Thanks to the readers for well reading.

I wish I had more to say other bitching about not finding a job, but life is life and you write about what is going on in life and that has been the focus.

That and riding the bike which needs a strong bath and some TLC from the best wrench in the West - Andrew Hawks -resident wrench in the Springs, Pro rider and one helluva nice guy.

One more

Clouds - building up again. It rained.

My Ride 2...

Rain and a Rainbow

My Ride.....

FIRE!

i forgot

goodnight my kiddies

Yo Hawkes

Call me before you head back to the springs - planning a ride in the hills above E-Green a minor detour for you but fun trails. Sorry I missed you man - I have a tale to tell. Phone calls are funny adn I am sure that your gonna love this.

By the by - wonderous CC just pulled into the top 20 at Norba, that would be colin cares from SMBA/ Boulder former ski racer now U23 cyclist.

I went on a ride and while fun, it was hot and sort of hard my back is still trashed and my hip seized up, after hour 3 I am 20 miles from home and thinking ohh shizzz, outta water and only on GU left I am hosed, caught a tail wind and trucked it back to the barn, after being passed by a set (2) of tandem riders, several little kids with flair on the handle bars and a lil old lady that offered to TOW me back in. As you would imagine I declined, but in my weakend state all I could think of was home and a shower and get me off this frackin tourture device.

The training is going well I feel great most days and have have nearly mastered the warm up and speed to get going in a race. I need to race I feel the pull of blood sweat and gears, but flying with no insuracnce has me beyond timid and when you are timid that is when you end up in the ER. So anyway Hawkes call me so we can put plan B into motion.

Mtb Climb

Time to go.

What is it with you?

hardest question that was ever asked of me, next to "what's the matter with you".

I really truly do not know which way to turn next.

Portrait of life from the other side of the lens.

blanks never hurt

What am i doing wrong? 2 plus months no job not even a part timer.

It has to be me - desperation somthing anything and now the real pressure starts loved ones - no worse feeling than that. You already feel like a failure, and now your family sees you as a failure also.

Fuck I shave am clean have a good resume smart can do most of it and I am a leper. When you feel like the world is crashing down around you it sometimes really is. I did my best and will keep doing my best. But now - seeing your failure in the eyes of others is to much to bear when added with that of family - devastating. I feel drained alone and a bit like giving the fuck up. No future no past and well the present is pure sweet hell. I have done to much or not enough damned if I do or damned if I dont.

I am at tears and trying to be strong and wish and not drag anyone down with me. The bike is good therapy, but even that hurts as deeply as this. I am a mess and clawing, jawing and crying about it is not doing shit and looking for a gig is going to shit - that was made so clear, when you hear that in a persons voice - when it seems like they are making the decision to help or walk away even if it is in your head that feeling kills a bit more in this numbers crunching dehumanizing world I do not know what to do.

Nice Amc called

The kid is doing well. he has been on the road for 2 and half months. But he is alive and will be back soon to Colorado. We're going riding.

aaaaaaaaha

finally got it reckoned out - audio blogger is back to life. Now when I feel like ranting raving or just saying howdy I can do that without having to write everything out. Ohh i feel so special and pretty.

Damn Audio Blogger

Is not working - trying to post some voice comments and now I have to type that I can't verbally update. Now how is that for a real waste of time and energy. Sheesh.

90 out already with a hot wind from the west south west and gusty as heck.

Trying to get a good ride in after interviews updates and monster, hot jobs, salejobs.com and the colorado workforce web site - looks like we are all going for same gigs. All I can do is keep rolling and rolling and rolling and keep the faith.

So what are you guys doing? Jeremy is on some super secret mission I guess, Brian F is incommunicado down in the jungle, J Hersh is still fighting the good fight Derek is coming off an injury, Hawkes is doing boulder proud in the springs - talk about culture shock, liberal and free "hey dude" to yes sir no ma'am snappy salutes.

anyway I hope the voice post pop's up and we can all listen.

Wow

All kinds of people visit this site - thanks to our Malaysian brothers and sisters.

Malaysia
State / Region
Kedah
City
Kampong Tepi

I would guess that would be it for today.

Ride

Tues - 11 am start going up to E'green via Mori to Gold to DT then back to the res. Holla at the crackber.

Gotta bank some more miles for the future.

Resume Available Upon Request

Just ask - Sales Marketing Adminstration Mentoring Advertising Coaching Customer Service. I can do it all. Come on give a guy a chance.

Never Seen this before

Strangest colors outside right now. Sorta orangeish, flat grey, the green leaves are sorta brown. I swear I am not on drugs so I took a picture of the clouds to the south from my deck. Colorado - always something new and different.

Ballsy Move

Danirlr Contrini - LPR non pro tour team ran off the front for a 100k breakaway and wins the stage at the Tour De Switzerland - can you say WTF. No one even chased him - simply rolled off the front and kept on going.

LPR barely made it into the race and now they have a huge stage win, I mean HUGE. Amazing things do happen in life and if he can hang it out like that I can get a cool job and make some money and live a fun life.

Valient effort by my man out there. Pretty bad ass.

Gotta call Hawkes back - well I need to clean my car out so that I can find my phone to call him back - that thing and my place are such a mess that I can barely contain my own self contempt at how far I have plunged. Normally it is not to bad but this is stupid.

Still no word

Still jobless - this is entirely to hard and rough I thank people for their empathy and kind thoughts. I am nearly a broken person during this ordeal. I thought I had something to offer a company or companies now I just feel like damaged goods.

Fighting the urge to just get wasted and stay wasted for ohh......ever.

This is the bad times.

4 Flights Later

Back home - no idea if I got it or not so I have to hold my breath.
Flights not so bad.
Never could find this Brea place so we went to the beach - Laguna Beach that is such a tny area I looked right at home in a suit checked out the Montage and a few other sights with my sister and her girl Pilar.

Celebrity sightings? 1 Chavo Guerrero on the way to Santa Ana.

Father Mc's girlfriend is a funny chick.

That is all.

One Night Only

Bar 330. 10pm. If I get it or lose it. The power hour is on. &uck it right.

&ucked

great what next?

Good night people

Job's?

Anyone have an update for me? Someone one somewhere can help with lead or two. Email me: thecarve at you know what dot.com

Yeah Tim!

Timmy D pulls off a 9th place finish in the first stage of a race in spain. Timmy is coming off a cracked collar bone and was racing the last few weeks here at home. Good luck to the Tiaa Cref guys and the US national riders.

I love how they the mucked up some names reversing the family name and the first names. Wacky Euro's.

HANDSOME BOY MODELING SCHOOL

Get it.

Ride

To clear the mind and get the junk out of my body.

So: my place to downtown to platte river trail to chatfield back up cut if off at dartmouth dude to a rain sqwaul had to stop at 7Eleven to get a plastic bag to cover up the ipod and phone and continued on back to the trail to make it back here 60 something miles and just over 4 hours.

Shoulder is worked and I stink like like well I just stink. Time for a shower.

Help

If anyone hears of a job, knows a good recruiter, has a job anything can you let me know? I mean really it should not be this hard so I am asking for help which is hard as hell for me to do.

New XTR Middle ring

source MBA action

Recruited by

Got a call from &*&&**&&**& Colleges to be an educational recruiter. Huh? Sorry there Erika. Not a position I would look at for that low of a salary. Off for a ride as there is not a whole lot I can do but hurry up and wait for stuff to happen - trying not to be pushy with employers but as you can see selling off stuff can olny get you so far and when that is gone your truly screwed.